5 of 30 NaPoMo 2017

Sometimes I look at you like the best book I've ever read. You're always on my mind. And thoughts scatter a million miles a minute. Wishing nothing but peace for you. Time flies like we've been here before. And pieces seem like they fit before. Maybe we wished for this. In an alternate reality we would be perfect. And nothing would require explanation. I find myself deviating from conversation because I refuse to fall. When your eyes become too intense, I look away. And make jokes. And change subjects 

Because...Just because...The right words escape me to say how I feel. I wish that I could say I'm envious of them; The ones who left behind broken pieces but they were never worthy of you. 

I almost wish I could men in black zappy thing even the slightest memory they have of you.?So undeserving. The mere existence of you should have made them quiver. But they couldn't 

The Jester was never meant to stand next to the Queen. Having nothing to deliver to you other than heartache. So now they scream their mistakes with hopes of pulling you back in. I pray you never let them. They already take up too many pages.